Throwing away a whole year?

First Things First: Either "Waste your whole 20's" content or "Waste a year in your 30's." I'll take the latter I guess.

This is a blog post like the ones people make YouTube videos of. It's just not my thing to make YouTube videos like this on a channel about design creation.

2022 was an interesting year. Covid was on a decline thankfully, the world was slowly opening up, yet the stock market was starting to tumble down. On the Career side, work had increased a ton as a handful of my Teammates pivoted into newer opportunities and I myself was looking to move into a higher role. Then on a personal note I was producing content on my YouTube but my second hobby of collecting started to snowball 😆 so I was lacking in videos. In my Private life though...well still keeping it private, I felt things had stagnated. Spiritually, emotionally, recreationally; I hadn't taken a proper break in over 6 months and I felt a step back was good. In March I took a weekend trip with the homies just to get out but returning back to mundane felt inevitable.

And it did.

Yet there were still accomplishments made; I received the promotion in my job, I increased my skillset, took on a few side jobs under Human By Design and looked forward to expanding my brand. All of which I'm thankful to the hundredth degree!

But each individual is aware of steps to their own success. There are goals, there are achievements, there are things to reach that make you feel you are going the right way. Understanding that we shouldn't replicate the lives of others and follow our own personal path of success is evident, sometimes (most of the time) easier said than done. Saying all that to say; checking on your mental health during your external progression is important.

We might think too low of ourselves. We feel anxious approaching an occasion or event or daily tasks. We lack the understanding of our feelings toward a situation or even others. We no longer hear our inner voice confidently helping us. We hear others but no longer listen. We burry our feelings in activites that are mundane. We practice actions that provide no meaning. We believe if we disconnect from everything and everyone we'll figure it out by ourselves. We've stumbled into a shell of our former self...

2023 has been an interesting year. 6 months in and I've made some deeper revelations that I wish I could have seen years ago. The Covid period robbed us of many things including loved ones, but it displayed to a lot of us where we might be lacking, especially gratitude. If the possibility is there, reach out to a professional about mental state so that you can do better not only for yourself but also your close ones. Everyone is going through something so you want to be a better version of yourself to be available to others. Things are weird but have your goals set to the next day. Hoping and praying only good things for those that read this. Next step after realizing your faults is just to move up and over them to be better.